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image searches are just junked up to hell. google, pinterest and duckduckgo's "no AI" filters do not fuckin work. so, here's a quick n dirty list of where i go now when i need some drawing reference.

caveat that's probably obvious: even the "AI-free" big stock websites probably have at least some AI lurking in them, because people who litter don't give a shit about "no littering" signs.

istockphoto, getty images, & shutterstock
https://www.istockphoto.com/ & https://www.gettyimages.com/ & https://www.shutterstock.com

MIRACULOUSLY, these have not yet fallen to AI. they will advertise their stupid AI "tools" loudly at you, but those are for modifying images after-the-fact. they do not actually allow generated images to be uploaded for sale. their size and popularity, along with the fact that stock photo sites tend to be good about specific keywords and descriptions, makes them ideal places to search. ime these sites were like half of google image results pre-AI-boom anyway LOL

pexels
https://www.pexels.com

free stock photo site. large selection, pretty good search tools. explicitly does not allow generative AI uploads.

pixabay
https://pixabay.com/

free stock photo site. requires ai images to be labeled and lets you filter for authentic images only.

unsplash
https://unsplash.com/

free stock photo site. explicitly does not allow generative AI uploads.

flickr
https://www.flickr.com/search/

not completely AI-free, but it hasn't been cool since yahoo instant messenger still existed, so the clankers mostly ignore it. GREAT search tools, lots of Creative Commons stuff, you can even use advanced search to narrow your search by date to pre-AI-boom times. heads up, this is one of the rare big long-standing gallery sites that still allows some NSFW images, so be warned if you don't use the filters DICKS WILL BE ON YOUR SCREEN. (i guess that probably also means you could find nude reference there.)

the internet archive
https://archive.org/

can be a little tricky and clunky to use at times, but filters can often turn up interesting stuff you won't find in other places. definitely not AI-free but can be filtered by date to pre-AI-boom uploads.

the base mesh
https://www.thebasemesh.com/

a fantastic growing archive of basic 3D models of common objects. easy to download and view an object at an angle.

reference angle
http://referenceangle.com/

a much more specific tool, for when you need to see a head at an angle. try it out. shit rocks

for pose reference made specifically for artists, you should also check out adorkastock, trueref, and jookpubstock. i also highly recommend the Character Design References Visual Library.


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just kidding, this is just a vent post about the last 2 weeks of my life. some fun facts about me:
  • i have adhd
  • vyvanse works great for me
  • i also have pretty severe psychological trauma from a time some prescription meds went bad on me which has led to emetophobia and an extreme fear of unfamiliar substances
  • generic vyvanse does not work for me at all AND makes me sick to my stomach which triggers the emetophobia
  • i am also really bad on the phone, because i have trouble understanding people and i get really anxious and clam up and forget how to talk and it's a nightmare

(october 29th)

pharmacy #1: we're out of vyvanse. it'll be in on november 3rd

me: ugh whatever, this is the kind of thing i skip doses so i can cover, it's fine

(november 3rd)

pharmacy #1: haha just kidding november 10th

me (facedown in a puddle of my own blood, barely able to think or move, due to Aunt Flo's stupid shenanigans): whatever it's not like i'm getting anything done this week. guess im taking a break from my meds for a while

(november 5th)

friend: hey did you see Sun Pharmaceuticals' generic lisdexamfetamine is all fucked up and recalled?

me: ...that might explain why the pharmacy is struggling to fill my name brand stuff again ugh

(november 10th)


pharmacy #1: we will have it on november 24th

me: sure you will, sweetie. hey pharmacy #2 do you have my dosage of vyvanse in stock

pharmacy #2: yeah we have plenty of that right now

me: ok clinic can you please re-send the prescription over to pharmacy #2 thank you

clinic: yep (waits until the very end of the business day)

me: fuck's sake. it's really a waste of everyone's time that i have to go back to them like this every single time

(and at this point i start doing my research and find out, at the very least, there was a DEA rule change in 2023 that i didn't hear about that means i can have even a schedule II prescription transferred once between two pharmacies without my prescriber's intervention. why did no one ever mention this! who knows!!!!!!!!! i had been told this was impossible!)

(november 11th)

pharmacy #2: vyvanse out of stock sorry. none until the 24th

me: but you said you hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

pharmacy #2: sorry what i meant yesterday was we have plenty of the trash generic shit that makes you sick and useless and panicky

me:

me: okay,

me: well,

me: can we transfer it to another pharmacy

pharmacy #2: yes it looks like this other one near you has it in stock

me (stupid, expecting literally anything to ever go right): yay! one more phone call and i'm done!

pharmacy #3: hey so we tried to transfer it but your insurance said it's too soon since it was last filled

me:

me: but it hasn't been filled since september

pharmacy #3: thats weird

me: oh it's because the clinic forgot to cancel it at pharmacy #1. ugh can you cancel it or do i have to call someone else

pharmacy #3: you have to call someone else

me (dying inside): (screams into pillow)

me: UUUUUUUUUUUGH clinic can you please cancel the prescription at pharmacy #1

clinic: yes and i will call you back when it's done

me (feebly): do you have a time frame because i'm kind of scared pharmacy #3 is going to run out before they can fill it

clinic: no time frame sorry

me (too nice): ok :)

me: (screams into pillow again)

(and then the clinic proceeded to actually do the thing in a timely manner, but not call me back, but i caught it in time because i was feverishly refreshing pharmacy #1's website waiting for my old prescription to disappear.)

so here i am. with a splitting headache (from being unmedicated and sleep-ruined and furious) and a raw throat (from literally screaming into pillows because this sent me into an emotional meltdown). waiting for pharmacy #3 to notify me when it's ready to pick up. still unable to relax because what if they figure out a way to play keep-away some more lmao lmao lmao lmao

i have some rhetorical questions about this experience:
  • why?
  • why was any of this my responsibility?
  • why do i have to be everyone's unpaid intern?
  • why do i always have to be everyone's unpaid intern specifically when i am off my meds?
  • when will i get the millions of dollars in emotional damages i am clearly owed for being put through this same shit over and over and over and over and over since 2023?
  • how could anyone in this wretched world possibly believe in a loving god?
  • what if i just screamed really really loud next time this inevitably happens again? would someone help if i just started off with screaming? maybe i'll just scream
  • AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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